Apparent Depth

 

I was scared
I saw hands reaching out for me,
But i didn't hold on to any, I couldn't.
Tears rolling down my cheek at just the thought of falling from a seventy-eight storeyed building.
I screamed internally i wanted to shout but i couldn't my lips parted but nothing more than a whimper came out. I couldn't.
I stared at the masked faces in front of me who were constantly trying to reach me who was standing on the edge of the railing..
My mind wasn't in its best state..i was tensed and confused at the same time i couldn't tell right from wrong.
I shook my head down in frustration
My toes curled around the railing..it being the only platform i could clung on to at that moment...
I was being played on by my ownself
One part of me begging to call out and reach for the hands that seemed too desperate to be held on ..
...my family...

And a part of me crying in pain...and repeatedly refusing..as they are the reason for my state, for my suffering.

I was shattered..mentally and physically..
I had to collect myself altogether and take a decision..now.

The calves of my leg went taut from continuously balancing myself on and off the metal rail, my spine aching from the continuous stiff movement. My heart throbbing beneath my chest
My cheeks were red as hot tears continued to flow down them, i could feel the stinging pain in my eyes as they were burning hot.
My lids went heavy under the weight of mental exhaustion..
I managed to raise my gaze
My vision was blurred .
I don't know what i was searching for but the moment my watery eyes met their desperate ones i knew this was not what i was expecting
To begin with i wasn't sure of what i was expecting but anyhow, it didn't seem to relieve me
I let my eyes shut gently after capturing a glimpse of their agonised figures in my mind for the last time..
I knew what i wanted
I was not confused any more.
My heart aching vigorously but even though it hurts to the point to have me breathless it didn't feel wrong.
I felt a light breeze brush past my arms which were extended sideways. 

I let out the air inside me which seemed to suffocate me as i exhaled deeply..
I inhaled sharply as i arched my head to lean back
I felt a shudder of wave run down my spine at the sudden loss of the cold metal against my feet letting cold air in contact with them.
I was floating within the layers of air current as suddenly my body felt light as a feather..all of a sudden the pain in my mind and soul felt to have relieved.
I could hear faint screams and muffled cries from the distance i just made
From the voices i could slowly decipher a familiar voice which became more clearer with each moment that passed by..it was calling out for someone ..someone's name...my name.
The voice harshened..

"Norah"......"Norah"..

"Wake up you lazy head"

Mara screamed on top of her high pitched voice 

"Mhmmmm..I'm awake already so can u please shut up.."

I felt a hard hit on my back and somehow i was landing on the floor

"Ohh..so it was a dream"..i mumbled

"Wait ..
Did u just kick me off my bed".. i turned to her furiously 

"Ohh yes i did"

.. she deadpanned with an evil smile plastered on her face

Just when i was about to punch her ..she straightened up and said..

"Well if u're done staring this pretty face of mine, would you mind taking a look at your clock"

I gasped ..
It was 6:30 am and stood after managing some stumbles.

I rushed down the stairs just to have him staring blankly at me..

He stood their leaning on the wall
He wore his usual black T-shirt with faded blue jeans ripped over knees.. and sleek black belt with a delicate silver buckle .
His blond mullet was held with a red bandana revealing his forehead
Unlike me he had sharp features ; thick straight eyebrows complimenting his definite,big yet sweet eyes
He had thick wide lips of the shade of coral red
He was one shade darker than me
His beauty never fails to amaze me everytime my eyes fall on him.

Hii guys ..!!!

1st attempt on writing

So i wud appreciate some words of encouragement or improvisation which is needed a lot..😅 if at all u come to read this and wish to comment..
And also ..English is not my 1st language ...soo..pls try to ignore any typos...
I wud continue if i get further motivation..😉😉
Thank u..😊😊